Thursday, March 30, 2006

To go or to not go out??

Well let me start by saying how incredibly tired I am today. For some reason I could not fall asleep when I wanted to last nite and Addis kept on tossing and turning in his sleep and decided to wake up at 5:45 am !!!! I did get to take an hour morning nap but it didn't do me any good.
other than that, my dilemma of the day is to go out tomorrow for may friend gathering birthday or not... She has late dinner reservations, 8pm at waldos in the downtown market and she really wants me to come. I have known ka for many years and her mom is like a mom to me. Her mom offered to come over and sit around while Addis is sleeping since he does go to bed around 7:30 or 8pm. I don't know if I can do it though... Its hard thinking of leaving him with someone else. Not that I don't trust k's mom but I haven't left him longer than 1 hour yet and I don't know if I am ready. I have gotten lots of advice from pretty much everyone I talk to and the consensus is that I need a life also and that I should learn to let go and start to do things for myself... That is easier said than done to me. So what do I do at this point? I really don't know right now.. I might take the afternoon to think about it and see if I am truly ready but in my heart I know I am not ....Maybe a nice long afternoon nap will help clear my head and make me feel more awake and decisive ..:)


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