the life of a new mommy

life in pictures part 1

2006-11-05T20:46:00.000-08:00

lost blogger returns

2006-11-05T20:29:00.000-08:00

So its been a really really long time since I have had a blog entry and I really don't know where to start. So many things have happened in the past little while and I really don't have the time to go through all of them.
for the most part I have been keeping extremely busy working my two jobs (being a mommy is a fulltime, no holidays or overtime pay job!! ). Its hard to try and balance both worlds but it is getting better and easier for all of us as the time goes by. Addis had an amazing first birthday and he has ajusted to me going back to work perfectly. I am glad to be back with adults for the most part of my day since speaking to a baby is not quite the same as speaking to a work colleague.
I have so many pictures I want to share that are better than me just rambling on about things so I am going to end the blog here and show off the little one in action. I will do my best to keep updating my blog even if it is just with pictures! Sorry for the hiatus and I will be posting soon :)

pictures from cali part 1

2006-09-04T20:12:00.000-07:00

We are back :):)

2006-09-03T20:20:00.000-07:00

Well I must say that it feels good to be home. I am glad I am back to reality and to my life at home. I really had a fun time on our trip to see my family in California. It felt more special since Addis was with me and that I was finally getting a chance to show him off to my big family. We had a blast for sure and I would love to do it again real soon. Dave did make it for the first week and Addis and I stayed on for another 3 weeks without him. I must say that was a lot harder than I thought it would be. I missed him a lot and he missed us too. Its hard to be separated from someone who pretty much spends every moment with you. I could tell Addis missed him too because he didn't have anyone to play with him like daddy does so you could imagine what their first play time was like.
we had fun seeing my family and spending time with my gradient's. I did a lot of driving in those 4 weeks on the freeway and I am glad to be back on good old London roads! It was hard to leave family you love and care about so much but that is what makes it easier to go back and visit again.
so like I said before, its back to reality for me. I have had to plan Addis 1st birthday party in less than a week and I am hoping the weather will be nice enough so we can pull it off. We are having a bbq picnic birthday party so we can have lots of people come by and hang out and have kids play games outdoors and stuff. Its going to be in a really nice park area, the conservation area which has some cool playgrounds and picnic tables so it should be good. I am disappointed to say that some people that are really important to me cannot make it but some for valid reasons ( you know who you are ).I am excited but sad at the same time. This means a year of my life has gone by so quickly and that I will have to leave my baby and go to work... The next day!! Its so heart breaking to leave him after getting to be with him for awhile year...But it does have to go on. He is going to be with daddy for the most part and grandma for the rest of the time but I will only be working until 2:30 in the afternoon so that wont be so bad. I know that I will be a mess on September 11 but I know that its what I have to do. Hopefully I will be lucky enough to get a different job working part time instead of full time but we will see. until then we will manage...
well I am going to add some pics of Addis from our trip.. One thing that was crappy about my trip was that the new memory card I bought for my camera didn't work! So my cousins took the pics for me with their camera and all 183 pictures have Addis in them! I love my son and all but really now ... No pics of other family members, just mainly Addis!
well until next time

This one is for you Mel .. :)

2006-07-03T20:36:00.000-07:00

so I took another break from my blog and I am sorry to my one and only reader and fan club member for doing so. She didn't bug me much to start writing again but she did keep on checking my blog to see if there was a new post and she would let me know she checked it so thank you Mel for caring and wanting to read about my life stories.
so on another note, we took our first family trip ever this past weekend to Niagara falls and we had a blast. It was very exciting for me because I obviously being the mom like to document every first Addis has and this was our FIRST FAMILY VACATION... Sorry I just get really happy and excited when I say it and think about it. He was his usual happy chatty self on the drive up and he did take a nap so the trip started off really well. We stayed at a hotel called the skyline inn and it was located near the American boarder and the falls so it was nice and close to the strip and to a lot of good restaurants. The hotel was joined to another hotel by a walkway that took you to the indoor waterpark called the fallsview waterpark. this waterpark was huge and was located on the roof of the other hotel so you could imagine what we were thinking. Addis and I had fun hanging out in the wave pool and getting splashed abet. There was also another pool located outside of the waterpark that had basketball nets and stuff so obscures daddy took advantage of that and played some water hoops with addis. unfortunately we didn't bring our camera into the waterpark because we were not sure where we were going to put it and I didn't want to risk losing it or getting it stolen since we weren't by our clothes the whole time so I didn't take any pictures of it... I know I suck cause I really did want to take pictures but oh well..
but anyhow it was a blast and I loved the fact that we got to spend so much time with Dave since he had 4 days off in a row. He works so hard and a lot of hours during the week and sometimes even weekends so its a rare opportunity that we get so many days with him but it was special for us and I am happy he did this for us.
oh almost forgot my story about the lady at the hotel... So our hotel had this courtyard that our room looked over so I took Addis down there at around 7:30 in the morning so we can just sit and enjoy the sunshine and nature. Addis makes friends everywhere we go so he was all happy and people were stopping to say hi to him so it was kind of nice to see so many friendly people. Now he wasn't screaming or doing the usual morning babble but just being a little vocal at this point and I figured that it wasn't that loud so I just let him crawl around and play until this lady comes out of nowhere ( well she came out of her room but anyhow) and starts giving me this dirty look. So I said to her," I am sorry are we bothering you"?.. Rely ,"yes do you mind we are trying to get some sleep"... In a very bitchly tone. So I said sorry again and she shut her room door and we went back to your room in dismay. Now I know it was only 7:30 am but really now... She didn't have to be bitchy about it, especially when a baby is just having fun and playing...
well that's about it, I did add some pictures of our trip and one of Addis eating his FIRST popsicle ever all by himself !! Anyone want to guess how messy he was when he was done ??

First post in forever ...

2006-06-08T18:29:00.000-07:00

Its been over a month since I wrote anything in this blog and its been for a good reason too. My computer kind of died but never fear cause jay the computer guy is here.. ( that was cheesy but I wrote it)... The power supply went crazy and the computer was sounding like a lawn mower. Dave also did try and install a ceiling fan in our room and turned off the power without shutting off the computer so that didn't help much either... Its been so long I didn't know what to write about and where to start...
Addis is doing great like usual. He is still his curious little self and is starting to get into everything he can find since he is pretty mobile now and is starting to crawl forward now. Its cute watching his determination to get what he wants and what he can accomplish in such a short time... The other day he discovered he could open his dresser drawers and had a hay day sitting there opening and closing it a thousand times! He is still babbling away and sometimes it does sound like he is saying certain words like hi and bye but its just from all the sounds he can make...
he went swimming for the first time which was really exciting! He loved the water.. At first he was a little scared because it was cold but once he got used to it he was splashing away and kicking his feet. He also experienced his first gusmacker weekend which was cool too... Its a big deal for us since Dave has played in it for a very long time now and will probably play in it till he is 40 !! But Addis loved all the attention he got all weekend, he was being passed around and played with every minute and he hardly fused or cried since it was very different from his usual daily activities. He had his own little baller outfit and carried his own miniature basketball which was cute.. Dave and the boys ended up finishing 2nd in their division this year.
I am obviously adding picures to my post to show off my baby since he is soo cute... I got the best picture of him at dinner tonight with his toothy smile. He has a small bowel of spaghetti for dinner and ate it all so I was proud but what a mess he was!! Very cute though...

My poor poor Addis ...

2006-05-05T18:43:00.000-07:00

I wanted to write this blog entry not to dwell on what happened but to just get it out since it was something that could have been major but was not. It still had an impact on my day and I know it is going to be on my mind for awhile but everything is ok now.
before I start scaring people about what it is, I am going to tell the story. I went for lunch with my sister and her friends yesterday with Addis because they had not seen him since he was born. We went to the golden griddle which is a pretty good breakfast place for all those people in London who like to eat pancakes or even eggs at 5 or 6 in the morning. It has been a bit over a year since I had been there so I was up to going and seeing how it was. So our waitress was a bit of a how can I say this nicely ... Ditzy. She was very forgetful and made jokes about it a lot but she had to ask us 2 what we ordered to drink and when it came to our food, she messed up our orders and gave food to the wrong person and so forth. So as she was clearing the table after we ate, she managed to drop a table knife on my poor little Addis!! He was really shocked by the fact that something fell on him so he obviously cried ... A lot ... He actually screamed and I can honestly say that I have never heard him scream like that ever and it was scary for me. At first we thought it was just the fact that something fell on him that scared him but after we got him to calm down by giving him toys, I noticed that he had a cut in his eye brow and that the corner of his eye was also cut and swollen... That scared me A lot. He was fine and in good spirits after and went on like nothing happened but the fact that something like that did happen and it could have been worse then it was really bothered me. She could have been way more careful when she was clearing the table and I know it was an accident and she apologized multiple times, it still doesn't excuse the fact that she dropped a knife on an 8 month old baby. As I was driving home it really started to bother me that all I got was an apology from the waitress and that she didn't even notify a manager to tell them what happened. I know from working retail that you let a manager know of any accidents and even from eating at many other restaurants when anything happens that inconveniences a customer a manager comes out and apologizes and takes care of your bill. Now its not like I was looking for a free lunch, I just wanted someone to know about it that could reprimanded her for it. I called the restaurant when I got home after Addis took his nap an the manager was gone for the day so I made sure I called when they told me he was going to be in today. I did get a chance to speak to him and he was very apologetic also and he gave me the whole speech on how she was very careless and how he will make sure he talks to her. He did ask me how Addis was a couple times which was nice of him and I did reassure him that my son was fine and that all I wanted to do was make sure management knew what had happened so it would not happen again. He did tell me to come back in and see him personally and that he would make sure that we were taken care of which is nice of him but like I said, I can pay for the meal it was just the fact the waitress did not bother to tell a manager and that this did actually happen and thank god it was not anything more than just a couple of scratches. So that is my story, I am glad I wrote about it... It made me feel better to get it out. And can you believe that I still tipped the girl .... ?? I cant but I did it ...

HE CAN SIT UP !!

2006-05-02T17:40:00.000-07:00

I just thought I would share my many mommy moments with everyone once again. As you can tell by the title, Addis has accomplished yet another milestone.. He can sit up all by himself !!! Well he can sit up for a couple of minutes and then he topples over once he tries to reach something but he hasn't been able to sit up without my help supporting him so I was pretty excited. He is also trying to crawl forward now... He can bring his one leg up and shift himself forward but that hasn't been fully accomplished yet but I give him another week or so and he is going to be on the move. I had to add some pictures ofcourse so all of you can see him in action. I love the picture with the hat to the side. i bought him some hats because it is getting hot and he does need protection from the sun for his head but he wants to play with it instead of wearing it. i just think he is soo cute with that on, he is my little homeboy!! my mom has been saying how much he looks like a little rapper and i think this picture proves it for sure.. what can i say, he is turning out to be more like his daddy everyday!!

another addis moment

2006-04-28T18:55:00.000-07:00

I just felt like writing a little post to once again show you all another Addis picture moment. What can I say about this picture?? Um well we are at the I want to feed myself stage which is the finger food stage and its very cute but also very messy for mommy to clean up. I have bought him rice cakes and whole wheat bread and crackers so he can hold it and munch on it himself since he always tries to take away the spoon and the bowel and sometimes he is successful and makes a big mess all over himself for me to clean up. So we started with crackers and he liked them and now we are at whole wheat bread. I don't think he likes the bread as much as the crackers and the rice cakes since he just mushed it with his hands and made a mess all over his high chair and himself!! He is getting adventurous with his eating which is nice to see for sure because that means he is growing and getting older. He can also last a bit longer now during feedings so it gives me more time to play with him or just do other things. I have to say I am loving being a mommy so much that I wouldn't change the life I have for anything in the world! Look at the innocent little face.. it just melts your heart doesnt it??

2006-04-26T14:17:00.000-07:00

Life the last couple of days has been same old same old ... Nothing to new and exciting to talk about. We actually finished our infant massage class today. That was a little sad cause I was beginning to enjoy being around other mommys and talking. The instructor was really nice too. She was very helpful and also sweet so I am going to miss her. Its funny how quickly a bond forms between people in only 4 weeks time. We were all sad to say goodbye but we do have each others email addresses so its up to us to set up play dates and get togethers. I have to for sure sign up for more of the parenting classes. Not only was it educational for me but it also gave me time to bond with Addis doing something new which is always a good thing. So yah that's about it for me ... I just wanted to do a post since its been a couple of days .. I ofcourse had to include one of the cutest pictures of my handsome little man just to make it an awesome blog post !
how cute is this picture huh ?? I love it so much that I think I am going to put it everywhere so I can smile each time I look at it .. Anyhow that's all for now ...More cute pictures will come

What my sister and I will never do again ...

2006-04-23T16:58:00.000-07:00

My sister and I like to go on regular shopping trips during the week together just so we can spend time with eachother and the kids. We both love shopping to begin with no matter what type of shopping it is and most of our time is spent at our favorite grocery store which is the superstore. We probably go there atleast once a week just because there are always great deals and its big enough to spend lots of time in there looking around. So on Friday we decided to share a cart which seemed ok at first ... Let me say that is was the craziest shopping trip ever! Sharing a cart meant that samir and Addis had to sit together and the Ali would walk like a big boy holding someone's hand. Yah lets just say that it didn't work out too well. First of all, Ali cant stay still and was at points walking into people and not looking where he was going.. Second of all, apparently Addis and samir didn't feel like being friends that day because they were both bugging eachother! samir was pulling Addis hair, taking away his toys, poking him in the face. Addis was putting his hand in samirs mouth and pulling on his teeth and at some points leaning on samir and trying to bite him... Can you say help me !!! And then there is gabby... Independent miss I want to do it gabby. She wanted to push the shopping cart because we normally let her but she didn't understand why we wouldn't let her that day. It was bad enough having the two boys in there to push let alone a cart full of groceries. She couldn't control the cart at some points and was constantly getting toys thrown at her feet by the two boys. It would have been a very entertaining site for many people who saw us that day you know ... Two moms trying to shop with 4 kids making a lot of noise ... It was just crazy ! So samir had enough and started screaming so he had to be taken out of the cart so I pushed Addis along for a bit until he got on my nerves because he was grabbing everything he could get his hands on and putting it in his mouth ... Surprise Surprise !!! He even started to bite the shopping cart so I decided to take him out because we were almost done and walk with him in my hands. It was a tiring and a very very long and exhausting shopping trip let me tell you... We are never sharing a cart again no matter how little groceries I am getting!! I added some pictures since it was cute to see the two boys sitting beside eachother. Yah I would like to also add how Addis looks like the one year old and not samir! He is so much bigger than him in many ways and this picture shows it ! I think I am raising the next big linebacker for the NFL or something !! And then there is Ali the monkey... I think Addis almost weighs as much as Ali does... I picked him up the other day and it felt like I was holding Addis ! So that concludes my fun shopping day story ... Hope you all liked it and laughed at how crazy we were.. Life with kids is very unpredictable and always adventurous!

Sleeping angel ...

2006-04-20T18:19:00.000-07:00

I finally did it and I am proud of myself. Since Addis has been born he has been sleeping in our room in his bassinet playpen or in our bed... Yah I have heard it from people about the bed sharing thing and to me it was going to be ok in the long run as long as I started putting him in his room by himself. I finally had the courage and put him to bed in his room for the first time last night and I felt scared but good about it. I have this thing that I always have to watch him and I guess I am slowly beginning to realize that he will be fine without me there. I have watched him sleep since he was born and I did it because I just could not believe that he was here and he was mine and also to make sure that he would be ok. I guess this is a growing process for both of us since I am the one that has to learn to let go. Well he slept for 5 hours by himself until he started to hit his head against this mobile fish aquarium that we have in his crib. This thing is on the inside and does take up a bit of space and Dave and I heard it come on at round 2 and we thought he was awake but he had hit it with his head so we moved him to another spot away from it only to hear it come on 2 more times. Addis did kind of wake up and notice me and at that point I did take him back to our room. I am happy to say though that he is once again sleeping in his crib tonight and hopefully he will sleep the whole night by himself but we are going to take baby steps at this until we are both comfortable with the situation. I know I have a life time of many firsts for both of us to look forward to and I am excited. And to prove it to everyone that I did do this I took a picture of my angel sleeping .... I can do this right ? :)

Where's Addis ??

2006-04-19T17:41:00.000-07:00

On a more happier note, I had to show off these pictures of my darling little boy. The best part about them is that he was laughing the whole time I was taking these because we were playing a game of peek a boo. Can you tell he got stuffed animals for Easter?? How many bunnies can a little boy have?
it is always fun to watch him so happy and laughing at silly games that we play... its makes me wish that he would stay like this for a long time ...but they do have to grow up dont they??

Damn government ...

2006-04-19T12:53:00.000-07:00

So can I just begin to express my frustration with the govenrment? Let me start by outlining one of my many issues, how much they suck at customer service. I applied for Addis birth certificate when he was born which was obvisously 7 months ago and I still don't have it even though they took the $30 cheque we sent them and cashed it. So I have been calling on and off for months only to have a busy signal at the other end of the line and up being told that we have never applied for a birth certificate for our son... Excuse me now?? I apparently paid $30 to only register Addis birth and not for his birth certificate. I had to go through another application process and pay them more money so I can finally get his certificate. My other issue is with the baby bonus money which I have not seen yet. I have also been calling that office for months to get a busy signal and when someone finally picked up I had the wrong number and was given another 800 # !!! AHHH .... I hate them I hate them I hate them soo much.. So I have spent my afternoon on hold for an hour at a time to get told what I don't want to hear which is very frustrating and annoying. The only good thing is that I finally got some answers after months of waiting but will still have to do more waiting for answers on where my money is for my baby bonus. I HATE 800 #'s and I especially HATE how this stupid government works !!!!
there I have vented and I feel better .... I am glad Addis slept through all of this because it would have been a little hard to try and get all of this done with a baby awake!!

2006-04-12T17:39:00.000-07:00

I guess I could say that its been a tough couple of days for me. Addis has his first runny nose which I am not sure if its going to turn into a cold or not since he did have a bit of a fever before I put him to bed but man is it ever hard to see your baby sick. He really only breathes out of his nose so for him to be so congested is very hard. He tries to breathe but he cant so he kept on waking up and tossing and turning for most of the night. I let him sleep with me and kicked Dave out of the bed cause I wanted to watch him to make sure he would be ok and I hardly slept cause I was literally watching him. So I was tired today but that's ok cause this is life in mommyhood...He was fine for parts of the day today since I was able to give him medicine to help with the congestion. Let me tell you that some of the stuff they have for babies to help with that is hard to do. We have this snotty sucker that is a piece of crap since you cant get to the snotty cause the whole is huge and Addis nostril's are so small. There is also this saline solution that you are supposed to put in their nose with this dispenser that goes in the nostril.. Once again another hard thing to do if your baby is trying to squirm off your lap or away from you because you are trying to stick something up his nose! But hopefully he will get better in a couple days before we have to head to the grandparents for Easter. I just hate seeing him struggle and want to make him better right now but I guess I don't have magic healing powers do I??

What a cool guy....

2006-04-10T17:49:00.000-07:00

So I bought Addis some sun glasses about 2 weeks ago from the children place when Kim and I went shopping. I thought they were pretty cool and they were only 2 for &8.00 anyways so it was a good deal. When I first put them on him he kinda didn't like it.. He did the Stevie wonder head thing to try and shake them off and then he just got used to it. He still tries to grab them off his head every time I put them on him but I think he looks cute. His cousins saw him for the first time with them on today and started calling him the "cool guy". I think that's a pretty cool nick name if you ask me... Doesn't he look like so adorable??!! I got to say I love them on him! I am not trying to be one of those moms that dresses her baby up all the time in the coolest trendiest clothes but its nice to have a little fun with your baby. I just love seeing him look so cute... :)

2006-04-08T17:42:00.000-07:00

So I just wanted to write again so I can show off my really cute picture of Addis that I took today. We have been kind of lazy in the picture taking department for the last I don't know how many months. We just needed new batteries for the digital camera and we finally got some so I am going to take pictures like crazy!!! Anyhow, we had a fun day though, hung out with daddy all day which was nice. He took us shopping and barbecued lunch and cleaned and did laundry!! Yah even I am amazed by the amount of things Dave did for me today.. It was really nice and I liked feeling like a family. We don't get to see him often because he works so hard for us that he sleeps most of the time we are up and about so to have a day like today was very special to us. Maybe that's why Addis didn't want to take an afternoon nap, he knew daddy was around so he fought sleep and made room for playtime which was ok with me since he is fast asleep now.
anyways, I think this is my favorite picture for right now cause of his facial expression but like I said, I will be taking lots more!!

Kids can say the funniest things

2006-04-08T11:13:00.000-07:00

So its been awhile since I have had an entry but I have been feeling a bit under the weather for the last couple of days. Its hard being sick and taking care of a baby when you have no energy and feel drained. I think Addis could tell I wasn't feeling good so he was good for me. I feel better today and have a bit more energy so I decided to write about something that happened last weekend that I thought was hilarious!
so when we were on our shopping trip last weekend in whiteoaks with Bishu, we were trying on shoes at the bay cause CeCe was working and we are all shoe addicts. There was a little girl and a boy there shopping with their mom and the little girl was constantly watching us. I had taken Addis out of his stroller cause CeCe was showing him off to all her work associates. The little girl came by the stroller which Bishu was sitting beside and asked,"where is the baby?". I replied, "right here in my arms, you want to see him?". She ofcourse replied yes so I sat Addis back down in his stroller and he sat himself up and proceeded to try and grab the little girls hair! I told her that is his way of saying hi to people and she smiled. She then looks at my sisters and says, " he's a bit one isn't he"?...!!!! A little girl who could not have been over the age of 3 years old made that comment... Now as you probably could guess we could not hold our composure and started laughing... What can you day to that really?? bishu could not stop laughing and I just replied." yeah,hes going to be a big kid some day just like you". Never under estimate what can come out of a young persons mouth. My niece and nephew have amazed me before but never did I think that a 3 year old girl was going to tell me that I had a big baby.

New adventures

2006-04-05T17:58:00.000-07:00

Today Addis and I started our mommy and baby class. We are taking infant massage through one of the resource centers downtown. I have been waiting for this since we signed up 2 months ago and was very excited to see what it was going to be like. We also want to make lots of mommy friends out of this so we can hang out and have lots of play dates and that shouldn't be hard cause my son is very cute and charming. So we got up a bit later then usual today cause Addis was up at 3 am and didn't go back to sleep till about 4 am. We had our breakfast and off I went to change him into his outfit and long behold after he was all dressed and looking cute, he has the biggest poo and gets ruins his whole outfit! I was disappointed but what can you do.. That's life with a baby right?? So I decided he is still cute in his pajamas too and put them back on and off we went.
oh, also on a side note, what was up with all the snow today? I had to put him in a snow suit after we wore a spring jacket and I wore sandal's the other day ... Mother nature I tell you ... Very unpredictable lately.
anyways, so we head off to our class and we met all these cute babies. For some reason Addis looked the biggest and I think he is the oldest in the class too. There were other babies that were close to his size and there are a lot more boys then girls. So we started our lesson and learnt all these cool massage techniques and the whole time Addis was just trying to turn over and roll away from me so he could grab the baby beside us!! At one point he did roll over and almost grab the babies head and it was cute to watch but what can I say ... It seems like he wants to do what his cousin does to him which is poke and grab and sometimes stick his finger in addis's mouth...Yah babies are funny.. They will try and do anything! I was really glad I signed up for these classes and I am hoping throughout the summer we could do more of them just so we can socialize and get out of the house. We will see what next Wednesday brings though.

The next day ...

2006-04-04T14:33:00.000-07:00

So I woke up this morning feeling really crappy. Once again it was a night of restless sleep for myself and also for Addis. My throat was hurting and so was my head and I felt like I was going to be sick. I hate getting sick ... Its the worst feeling ever to me. So I got myself out of bed and ready for the day. I took some advil and I think it helped a little bit buts I am starting to feel crappy again since its been oh 9 hours since I took it.
anyways, so I was ready to be bold and assertive when I called the repair shop and to my surprise they were really nice to me today and the aprt was in. So Addis and I went there in the morning and they put the O2 sensor on and once again apologized for all the errors over the past 2 weeks... I said thank you and hopefully this will be the end of our car problems. So we went on with the rest of the day as normal, did some grocery shopping and also went to the mall to exchange some jeans I bought for Addis since the sizes were wrong. Can u believe I had to buy this boy 3T jeans??!! They were on sale for only $ 7.99 and I had bought him 24 months cause that's what he wears now but they were just too tight for my liking when I got them home and on him. The next size up is toddler.. What is this kid going to wear when he is a tolder?! They fit big which is ok since I want them to last as long as possible. Hopefully he doesn't out grow any of these jeans till hes 1 and a half or something...Wishful thinking right?
well I made my famous roast and vegetables for dinner and the smell is making me hungry so I am going to go see if its done so I can eat... I am hungry!

Have I forgot to talk about my car??

2006-04-03T17:33:00.000-07:00

So for the last little while, we have been experiencing car problem after car problem. I don't want to start from the beginning with this story because it would take awhile and since it would get me mad again but lets just say I have had about enough. So Dave crashed the car and the repairs were being taken care of through insurance since it was going to cost $3,500 to fix all the damage. The repair place the insurance wanted us to take it to seemed ok at first, very reputable , family owned and nice man running the business. We were told it would take a couple of days to fix the car after it took them 3 days to finally look at it and assess the damage. So we waited and called on the date we were told it would be done and found out that its not done. He said call back tomorrow.... He said the same thing the next day .... Then he said that he was waiting for parts from Mazda since he was sent the wrong ones and that they would be here tomorrow... We waited again. Finally after two weeks ( yes people.. 2 freakin weeks to fix oh maybe 5 parts that were broken ..!! f$%kers....) I called on friday and told him that I had to have the rental car back today by a certain time since it was only a two week rental and that we would have to start paying for it, he informed me that the car was pretty much done and to get enterprise to drop me off at the shop. So I get there with Addis to find out that once again there was one part that was sent to them that was wrong and that he would have to call Mazda again and re-order it and get them to rush it. So Addis and I sat there and waited ... And waited some more .... Till he came out and said the car is drivable without this part since its only the O2 sensor and that I could take it with me today but to come back on Monday so they can put it on. So I left with Stella kind of feeling like a new car but with her engine light still on after all this because of the damn O2 sensor.
so I call today ( obviously being Monday ) and speak to his wife who happens to be the receptionist and was told that the part is still not here!!! What the f*&ck people ... Either Mazda is freakin damn as hell or these people really really suck and don't know what the hell they are doing!! So the car is still not done and if I have to play the waiting game all week, someone is going to really pay .....

The day has come so soon

2006-04-02T12:11:00.000-07:00

When I first had Addis I thought of all the things that were going to happen and how he was going to go through all these milestones that were going to be adventurous to watch and be a part of. Some of them came way sooner then I expected and others are still not here yet but this one is the one I thought I would be prepared for but I am not. I bought all the babyproofing things like the socket covers and the cupboard door stoppers but still have not made use of them.
I layed Addis down on his floor toy this afternoon and went into the kitchen to grab a drink and when I came back he was off the mat and on his way towards the coffee table. Addis was crawling, or more like shuffling his way backwards towards the coffee table and was having fun doing it!! it was so exciting to watch him lift his body and then shuffle his legs. I guess my mom said I crawled backwards too so its normal for some babies. So I moved the coffee table and some other things out of the way and watched him make his way across the room. His first tooth is also on its way out and now he can crawl.... I cant believe this day is here!! So I should really get on the babyproofing shouldn't I???

What a day

2006-04-01T18:57:00.000-08:00

So today was a tough day for me... I could feel that Addis was not right and that something was wrong. He didn't laugh or scream as much as he normally does and he began to cry hisraricly when he saw his aunt. I guess its true what they say about separation anxiety since he was constantly watching me all day. There were certain times when I did leave the room that he didn't fuss but for the most part he was sad and tired. He took a 1 hour morning nap and then a 3 hour afternoon nap and still went to bed at 8:30pm.i am glad he is sleeping peacefully now since we did have a nice playtime before bed where he did give me lots of giggles and screams. We did have fun at the mall with my sisters though.. CeCe measured his foot so we know what size he is for summer shoes and we had lunch and shopped. We don't do that a lot.. I cant even remember the last time the 3 of us did that actually.. I really enjoyed it.
On another note, I have been cleaning like mad for the last hour or so just because the inlaws are coming to visit for a bit tomorrow. What is it about them coming that makes me clean every crevice of this house? Its not like the house was dirty but some things needed to be dusted and the living room needed to be vacuumed but I could have spot cleaned but I did areas where they probably wont even see. Well at least I have a clean house and had the energy to do it right?

i finally did it ...

2006-04-01T11:48:00.000-08:00

well i did it ! i went out with katherine for her birthday without addis. i left him with someone i knew would be fine with him even though i was still scared to do it. it was really hard for me for the first hour but i did call twice and katherines mom didnt answer the first time on purpose.she told me he was sound asleep when i called the second time and i was happy. the night was fun, we had dinner at waldos at the market and then went to robinsons hall for some drinks after. i forcourse had one drink and felt really tipsy... well that also might have been because i decided to order something different from the menu and ended up with something i really did not like which left a bad taste in my mouth and also in my wallet!!!! always ask if you are not sure what the menu means even at the risk of looking stupid at an expensive restaurant.
dave picked me up when he was done work and we got the report when we arrived that addis was still sleeping but did cry for the first hour because he was looking for me. i guess after we left he was fine for 10 minutes and played with kas mom but then started to notice that i was not around and stared at the door for a bit and then cried for awhile till he fell asleep. that just broke my heart. i am glad i did it though so he can start to understand that i am not always going to be there but i am going to have to do it more for it to be more effective. his mood today is different towards me and other people. he has cried alot more today then ever and i dont like that. as i am trying to wrrite this i ad to pick him up and sit him on my lap cxim ag cause he was crying... as you cAn tell by the wierd word since he is trying to banng or is banngin on the board ...anyways .. naptime is here but i will be back later to write more

The decision ...

2006-03-30T19:53:00.000-08:00

So I think I am addicted to my blog .. Thank a lot Mel ... :) luv yah ... Its almost 11 on and I am still up ..Wow that is a record for me actually. I fall asleep around 9 pm every night but Addis did wake up about 1 hour ago and I had to put him back to bed. I also read a lot of kims blog entries and made comments on numerous ones cause they were hilarious!!
I am tired but a part of me wanted to write so here I am writing another entry. So I think I have made a decision about tomorrow night.. I am going to do it.. I think ... No I am for sure. Its only 2 to 3 hours of girls having dinner and some drinks at a nice restaurant. Katherine does not expect me to go out after if they feel like it which they might so I have no pressure. I cant not be social anymore and to tell you the truth, I am pretty lonely most of the time. I really don't have many people to socialize with and Dave does work all the time so its just me and my baby. Now don't get me wrong, I love that its me and my baby but conversations are just quite not the same when you are talking to a 7 month old who drools and screams a lot for fun. So I am going to go out for dinner and hopefully not call more than 4 times to check in and I am going to enjoy myself because I deserve it! Now I need my beauty sleep so I am going to stop writing here
good nite ..:)

To go or to not go out??

2006-03-30T10:42:00.000-08:00

Well let me start by saying how incredibly tired I am today. For some reason I could not fall asleep when I wanted to last nite and Addis kept on tossing and turning in his sleep and decided to wake up at 5:45 am !!!! I did get to take an hour morning nap but it didn't do me any good.
other than that, my dilemma of the day is to go out tomorrow for may friend gathering birthday or not... She has late dinner reservations, 8pm at waldos in the downtown market and she really wants me to come. I have known ka for many years and her mom is like a mom to me. Her mom offered to come over and sit around while Addis is sleeping since he does go to bed around 7:30 or 8pm. I don't know if I can do it though... Its hard thinking of leaving him with someone else. Not that I don't trust k's mom but I haven't left him longer than 1 hour yet and I don't know if I am ready. I have gotten lots of advice from pretty much everyone I talk to and the consensus is that I need a life also and that I should learn to let go and start to do things for myself... That is easier said than done to me. So what do I do at this point? I really don't know right now.. I might take the afternoon to think about it and see if I am truly ready but in my heart I know I am not ....Maybe a nice long afternoon nap will help clear my head and make me feel more awake and decisive ..:)

my first entry ... what to write about ...

2006-03-29T17:18:00.000-08:00

well this is a new adventure for me and i am excited about it . it kind of feels like i am writing in a dairy and its been a long time since i have done that. well, my life lately has been a bit up and down. it has been one challenge after the other but how can i be sad when i have the most adorable and loving little man counting on me for everything? it totally changes your perspective you know, you bring this person , this tiny person into this big world and its not about you anymore. everyday is a new adventure with addis. as he is growing he is learning so many new this and becoming so determined to get what he wants. i cant believe it has been almost 7 months since i brought him into this world. well i think i have to stop here, the little guy is up and needs me but i will try my best to write everyday.
ps thank you melinda .. :)